Miscellaneous

Movies. All this time I really thought I hated watching movies because I couldn't pay attention. I mean I really have a hard time keeping up with what is happening when a DVD is playing but watch regular TV with no problem. Well, I bought a new LCD HD TV and for the first time actually enjoyed watching a movie. Just think, this whole time I had diagnosed myself with ADD when all along it was the TV.

The Gospel. I find myself realizing that the only thing that will ultimately help people and humanity is the true Gospel of Jesus Christ. Not the prosperity gospel, not the speaking and tongues and falling out gospel, not the Acts 2:38 or water baptism gospel, or any other man centered gospel, but the good news that God sent his only son for die for us while we were still sinners. Complete faith and total surrender to the one who has purchased us as his reward in which we can trust that our justification, sanctification, and glorification is a gift from him and a part of his plan from the foundation of the world.

The Climb. I like this song by Miley Cyrus. I know it sounds childish but I do.

Friends. I miss having a real conversations with my friends. I love discussing the deep meanings of life and pondering the reasons for everything with open minded people. Lately everyone has just been so busy with life, church, and family that it is hard to get together . . . I am the worse person at keeping up with the folks I love the most.

Lately I Been Thinking

It has been five months since I last posted anything. It is not that I don't have thoughts or things that I want to talk about but that there is so much change within myself that I can't necessarily figure it all out. Only after looking back at the last month, or six months, or years do I see the magnitude of the change in my life. Does anyone else realize the change, I doubt it, sometimes I don't see it myself. But, (and I pause because) . . . there has been great change. And I think that I can almost begin to express it in some way.

Fulfillment, passion/love, and rest. This seems to be the theme of my life at the moment. All three mashed up together and yet very distinct elements of myself with each dependent on the other . . . maybe a "trinity" of sorts. :) This is where I am right now. It is only with a personal look from where I came (the past) to where I am now (the future) that I stand in utter, complete amazement and a healthy fear at the greatness of Him. That a perfect God with complete foreknowledge before the foundation of it all was just waiting for the time when he would reach down and awaken me from death and into life more abundant.

It is all so amazing yet so hard to explain. How can I be at rest and be passionate and how can I be fulfilled if I have this passion pulling at me? Is it possible to find complete rest yet want to go full steam ahead with life and living to the fullest of what that God has for me? Is it possible to love so deeply yet not feel the pains and anxiety that usually go along with "falling in love"? Just to love without the anticipation or worry that I am being loved back. Can I be passionate for something without out the worry that I might be the only one who gives a care?

So this is where I am right now. I don't know if it makes sense or not but I am going to spend a little time examining these things in the next few blogs.